i feel our time has come, [ rachel ]

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rachel. :c i'm confused. i've never liked someone before as more than a friend.

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► ..hmm?

► wait, you like me? this seems like a popular proclamation today.

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i... what?
n-no. :c
well, i mean, i do, as a friend
because you're my best friend
but that's not what i'm talking about.

you know how you convinced me to go to those hiv meetings in akron?

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► oh, oh okay, you were talking about someone else, i see

► yes! and i still stand by that idea so if you're considering stopping going i refuse to let you. in fact, i'll handcuff you and take you there MYSELF.

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:c i'm going, i'm going. i just... met someone. he's my age and he goes to mckinley and he got hiv the same way i did.
except he's really optimistic and happy and sweet and cute. :c his name is elliot.

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► you sound like you like him! a boyfriend would be good for you

► but why are you pulling sad faces? you should be joyous and exuberant! not.. sad.

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i-i think i do like him. :c we've been talking a lot. but i doubt he likes me back, first off. :c second, i've never had a boyfriend/crush on someone before so i don't know what to do and i'm confused and i don't like being confused. what do i do? :c :c :c

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► aww. well. first thing's first, you really need to be yourself. i tried to change so finn would like me, and he preferred the real me, and in the end, it didn't even end up working. so don't try to change who you are

► and second, just... ask him out some time? or ask him round to study, and maybe he'll fall for you, you never know.

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but myself sucks. :c
i won't, though. i have enough anxiety as it is without trying to do something else. i don't even know.
n-no, i definitely can't do that, no. :c and we don't have any of the same classes.
i'm good at accepting the inevitable. like... my death, or the fact that he won't like me. i just don't know how to deal with that. :c like, how i stop liking him. 'cause i don't wanna be sad when he's around. it's not easy to be sad when he's around, though. he's always in a good mood and full of hugs and stuff, but... still.

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► lorelai! stop being ridiculous you don't suck. you're amazing and beautiful and you're a great person and i will make it my life's AMBITION (or one of the many) to make you more confident in yourself because you deserve it!

► you are going to ask him out, alright. you are going to go up to him and say 'hello elliot. you're a really great guy and i'd love to go out sometime, as friends, because i like making new friends'. and then when you go out, serenade him or something. guys love that, right? or at least, i do, jesse did. *shrug*. you have a great voice.

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... maybe that's my problem, the not sucking thing. :c i sort of scream virgin. but that's not a bad thing, right? 'cause... that means i'm not a whore, and... yeah. i don't know. :c but don't bother yourself with that, rachel, you've got tons more stuff to worry about than me.

but... we already hang out as friends. :c we talk all the time at the meetings and at school and we talk about stuff constantly. because we both know how it is to be seventeen with hiv due to peer pressure. a-and i like having that connection. it's comforting.

and i somehow think that i'd throw up if i tried to sing.

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► there's nothing wrong with being virginal, we're still young. just think, we're pure and innocent and not some slutty.. slut. which is superb, correct? and no, i don't have tons more things to worry about, in fact, from here on out i am your very own love adviser, seeing as i'm lucky in that field right now.

► just compliment him a lot, very.. red riding hood-esque. be like 'elliot, what big eyes you have'. but try and stay waist up...

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:c i'm going to die a virgin. sob.
okay. you can be my love adviser. i'll probably be obnoxiously coming to you with pointless problems that aren't even problems but concern me anyways. like how to deal with the whole stomach butterflies thing when he hugs me and stuff. :c he's so cute. sobsobsob.
asdfghjkl but i already know he's not gonna like me so that's not gonna do me any good. plus i already do that.

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► i think maybe you need to wait for him then, be content with being his friend and pursue it with keen interest, as i did with finn.

► also, the stomach butterflies thing.. it's hard to get rid of it, but i think it's quite a pleasurable feeling, or is that just me? :)

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racheeellll. i'm saying that i... idk. idk idk idk. it's just all really confusing 'cause i've never dealt with this before. i am happy being his friend, i just don't wanna end up sad 'cause that's all we are, y'know? i guess i'll just have to hope it doesn't happen.

:c no, it's a nice feeling, but... i don't know. i'm so confused.